Thursday, May 31, 2007

Another Q & A

I got this from James. Thanks buddy!

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW???
For my family to be at peace.

WHAT DO YOU MISS???
My friends back in Boston.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION???
My self respect!!!

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL???
Fresh cut grass, fresh brewed coffee and freshly baked bread.

DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC???
No

DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK??? Only Sometimes

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME??? Belong by Celine Dion-it has a fresh clean scent to it.

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS??? Coffee. I aquired a taste for it while I was in college.

IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE??? A nice big piece of cherry cheesecake.

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU MAD??? A family member.

DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE??? No.

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU??? Tell them. I express my love and appreciation for people verbally or written in a poem or card.

SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED. 7

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES??? It depends on the individual.

WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN??? My mother's cell phone.

HAVE YOU BEEN TO ANOTHER COUNTRY??? Yes, The Bahamas. I went there on vacation in May of 2000.

WHERE WERE YOU BORN??? Everett, Massachusetts USA.

FIRST JOB??? In a drug store when I was 16.

WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST??? My natural curly hair.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL??? Cry.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY??? I have not really thought about it.

HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT??? None. I did when I was younger, but you never can tell what will happen in the future.

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE??? Yes, my mother's middle name is Marie.

DO YOU WISH ON STARS??? No.

WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE??? The middle one-I like to flip people off (only when they deserve it).

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING??? Yes it is very neat and readable.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT??? Oven roasted turkey breast.

ANY BAD HABITS??? Too many to list but here are a few: Unhealthy eating, smoking, and being a tad bit lazy at times.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF??? I'm not embarrassed by any of my CD's. I have a good taste in music thank-you very much.

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU??? Yes!

WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME??? In my overactive imagination.

DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY??? Usually yes. But through a series of unfortunate events, that attitude is slowly beginning to change. I want to belive that all peopla are basically good and can be trusted.

WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD??? A doll I named Crissy.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT??? No.

DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF??? Yes, most of the time.

THING YOU ATE??? Don't remember.

SIBLINGS??? Yes one younger brother. However, we have never been very close.

YOU LIKE SUSHI??? No.

ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT??? Yes. I had an inferiority complex.

PEOPLE YOU TAG: Whomever wants to do this.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

The Saga Continues!

Some of you have read the post titled "A Day In The Life". Well folks the saga continues. I was hoping that this would have passed but I was wrong. I have been ex-communicated from their lives.


They have deleted me from MySpace and have cut off all communication. It escapes me how some people can be so petty and spiteful. I am thinking that they may have read the post and "the mistress" got angry once again.


My message is this: YOU are NOT the only ones who are angry and hurt by this situation. If you are abel to see past your own anger and rage you would realize this.

Friday, May 25, 2007

You Wear It Well Captian Jack!

I should be taking makeup tips from this guy! I have never seen someone wear eyeliner so well.
I went to see this movie last night. ILMFAO! I especially liked the little monkey. He was funny and cute. If anyone gets a chance please go see this movie. You will laugh and cry.

In other news, I won $400.00 this week on the slot machine here in Pahrump. That money went straight to the bank. Since I am not working right now any money I get is a blessing. I went to Red Rock last night to see the movie and after I hit another $200.00 and half of that is going to the bank as well.

I am still looking for work, but there is not much here in Pahrump. I did register with the placement agency here but nothing yet. I am hoping to get back to work after the holiday weekend. I plan on returning to Vegas sometime this summer. My friend has offered me a room in her new home. I don't feel comfortable moving in until I have saved some money.

I hope everybody has a safe holiday weekend! We should however in the midst of our fun time think about the men and women of our armed forces we have lost is this disaster called IRAQ! This past week 2 soldiers from Nevada are confirmed dead! It is time we pull out and let the people of IRAQ run their own goverment. It is time to BRING OUR TROOPS HOME!

Friday, May 18, 2007

A Day In The Life

It was a beautiful Sunday morning, sun shining and birds chirpping. She arrived home after an evening of being with friends-old and new. She takes off her makeup and then quietly undresses. She crawls into bed and is asleep in minutes.

Suddenly she is awakened by the sounds of screaming and yelling by the mistress of the house in the room next to hers. She lies there thinking to herself Oh My God what has he done now and Oh My God what has she done now. She was with the mistress the night before and she KNOWS that she was drinking. Knowing this she lies there awake thinking that this cannot be good.

She tires desparately to go back to sleep but to no avail. The screaming and yelling continues along with lots of profanity thrown in for good measure. She hears the phrases such as 'Your'e a physcho' from him and 'I'll kick your ass' from mistress and 'I'll call 911' from him. She also hears the mistress express her anger at her as well. She then hears kicking and crashing of household items. She is lying there thinking she has got to leave for a while and let things cool down.

She lies there until mid-morning. She finally realizes she is not going to get any sleep so she rises and logs onto her computer. She checks and responds to e-mails and does a little blogging when her cell phone rings. It is one of her dearest friends calling to say hello. She does not want to anger the mistress any further so she takes the call outside in the warm morning sun.

Her friend tells her that the closing on her new home is rapidly approaching. She is very pleased for her friend and offers her heartfelt congratulations. Her friend offers her a room in her new home. She pauses for a moment to think about it and graciously accepts the offer. They also talk about how much fun they had working together and all the late nights they spent in the office making sure all the things that needed to get done got done. They continued to make idle chit chat until they were rudely interrupted by the mistress.

She stands by the doorway in all her morning glory and with a brash and sassy attitude says

"If you are talking about my life you are out of here!"

She turns around and gives the mistress a look that says what she talks about is nobody's business. In a huff the mistress turns and goes back into the house. She ends her phone call with her beloved friend and then carefully goes back into the house.

She sees the mistress in the kitchen and asks "Why are you so angry at me?" The mistress yells at her "Shut the hell up." Being as tenacious as she known to be (which is her only mistake) she says, "You were talking trash about me and I want to know what I did to make you so angry." Having enough the mistress with lots of anger and rage yells at her, "Get your crap and get out of MY house NOW!"

The master hearing all this continues to sit there and does nothing as it is his custom to do when mistress gets like this. This infuriates her to the point of rage. She knew in the back of her mind that this was coming. She knows enough to know when the mistress gets like this everybody suffers. She does not care so much about herself, she is concerned for the others. This is now unfortunately their cross to bear. While she is preparing to leave, she plays the events over in her head for a few moments and comes to the conclusion that it is for the best.

After her car is packed, she talks to the master and asks him to come with her. He politely refuses. She gets into the car and starts to drive away. As she is driving she is thinking that the mistress will continue to blame her for several days on end. She thinks the next time the mistress needs only to look in the mirror to see who is really to blame. She will continue to care about them ALL, only now she will have to do it as she has always done-from a distance.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

When She Sees Him Again

When she sees him again will it be the same
When she sees him again will it be over.


This is how I felt last week when I went to a karaoke show hosted by a old flame. At first it was very hard and emotionally charged. As the night went on, we got a chance to talk for a few minutes and I told him how I was feeling about the whole thing. I basically told him that I was hurt and given the chance he would have been good for me. I cried for a while-It was a healing tool. If you can't feel the pain it will never go away. And the dream says I want you and the dream is gone... so she stays up nights on end ..well at least there is a dream left.

We have managed to stay friendly. A small part of my heart will belong to him. So now I am waiting for the sun to come out again. I will be writing a poem about this experience, so check the poerty blog within the next few days