Friday, January 23, 2009

I'm A 7!!!

Your Spiritual Number is Seven

You bring knowledge and wisdom into people's lives.

You are an expert in many fields, and you give excellent advice.

Right now, your life is about perfecting your skill set.

You are almost a virtuoso at the thing you love best. With some practice, you'll get there.

You are highly intelligent and intellectual. You have profound analytical skills.

But you also have the soul of an artist. You long to create.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

The Letters

While in therapy, Carol suggested that I write letters to those who have hurt or wronged me as a healing tool. The opportunity has now presented itself to write letters to my abuser and my parents.

I have decided to contribute these letters to the Letters from Survivors book project. I hope these letters will finally help me take that final step-resolution and moving on.

There is the possibility however that when these letters are finally written and published that they will alienate me further from my family. That is a risk I am willing to take. I am willing to accept the consequences of my actions. I am thinking well the problem then is with THEM and not me.

I am estranged and avoid contact with my abuser. I wrote him off a long time ago. I went through the motions to try and have him in my life to please my mother. I now realize that I was living a lie. I won’t do it anymore! What concerns me now is that the rest of my family will not understand why I did this.

To us as survivors the answer is clear, to finally have some closure and reclaim our lives-the lives that were interrupted when we were abused and lived in constant fear and silence.

The letters will take a lot out of me emotionally. I will write them at different times. When thoughts come into my head, I write them down and then piece them together later. That is how I wrote my book, one step at a time. It is a lot like healing, taking it one day and one step at a time.

I personally want to thank the creator of the project for presenting this wonderful opportunity. I know however that it is up to me to heal and change my life. I am hopeful if a survivor is still sitting out there living in silence and pain, may our stories and letters offer hope and inspiration.

Friday, January 09, 2009

It's That Time Again

Well friends it is that time of the year again! I am sure you are all anxiously waiting to get thoes W2's and 1099's and pulling out your hair in the process! I have found that tax season brings out the worst in people!

I am working for H&R Block again this year. I decided not to be a office leader this year due to the fact that for the last two years I haven't made any money which I think is bullshit. So in my infinite wisdom I decided to let go of that role and become a preparer. I was concerned that my clients from last year would not be able to find me. Some of them have already called me to schedule appointments. COOL!

I moved to an office where they do a lot of self-employed and rental clients-the two areas I am good at-these returns are high in billing. So needless to say I will make some money this year.

If anyone out there needs some tax questions answered please feel free to send me a e-mail.