Yet Another Poem

This is one of my favorite poems. I hope you all enjoy it.

To heal she now feels the pain and cries the tears,
She has not done so for many years.
She lies alone in her bed in the dead of night,
She wants someone to hold her and take away the fright.

She cries because she was made an adult before it
was time to be one,
She could never go out and have any fun.
She cries for her lost youth and innocence,
She feels that her whole life she has done penance.

She cries for not experiencing a first true love,
Pure and white just like a dove.
She cries for what she did to survive,
She has never felt truly alive.

She cries for the reality that she is alone,
She wants someone to find her and bring her home.
She cries for the lost hope she sometimes feels inside,
She wants to pull over the covers and hide.

She cries for making bad choices,
She has always listened to the voices.
She cries for the way her life has turned out,
Now all she wants to do is scream and shout.

She cries for the person she once was and the person
she has become,
She still hopes that some day those two will become one.

Yes...It's Another Poem

The Happy Little Pill

I take the happy little pill,
I feel like I take it against my will.
They make me feel I lost part of me,
I want to stop taking them don't you see.
It helps me manage my disease,
They think it will help me live life with some ease.


Before the pill I lived by mine not society's rules,
Even now I still won't sink on that ship of fools.
Come hell or high water I will not be led to slaughter.

A New Look

I felt it was time for a change. So here it is. I will be doing other customizing in the comong days. I hope everybody is doing well.

A Short Poem

Here is a little something I have been working on. I hope it will not depress anyone.

The Guardian

Dear sweet one we have finally laid you to rest,
Your sensitive soul is not put to the test.
You were sent to protect and guard,
To help us when life gets too hard.
You now sit quietly here on my shoulder,
To guard and guide as life grows colder.
We need to believe you did not die in vain
If you did nothing will be the same.

Meet My New Friend

As promised here are some pictures of my Siamese kitten named Duke. He is the cutest kitty I have ever seen. I love him to death. I love playing with him but I have new scratches on my arms, legs and face but it is worth it. I am very lonely and he makes life a little bit better. I took him to the vet on Thursday to get his first set of shots and he is doing well. I have to take him back in 3 weeks to get his second set.

I am very sad to read that Miz E has stopped blogging. It seems my blog friends are leaving me one by one. First Shannin then Blither then Miz E. All I want to know is why? I am thinking maybe they are going onto bigger and better things. I will miss all of you very much. Please stop by the blog and leave a comment. I would love to hear from you guys again. I have phone numbers so you can expect a call from me soon.

Well that's it for now. All my blog friends take care and I hope to hear from all of you soon

Sound Off

Well, I am back people with a vengance. I am about to sound off on a few things.

I recently saw the film United 93 and I have to finally say that these Muslim extremists are a bunch of souless cowards who kill in the name of "Allah". I like to call them the "Devil's Cowards" and I think they should all burn in hell. The only posotive thing I have to say about the events of 9/11 is that it woke up our country to thinking we are invincible because that day proved to us that we are not and things had to change.

On Wednesday I saw The DiVinci Code and I do not understand the hype around this film. It is a work of fiction nothing more nothing less. I have a message for the pezzavante of the facist Catholic Church, let people think for themselves.
Are we trying to cover something up? Given the scandles of the last decade I am not surprised.

The immagration debate. As we have seen in the news, law enforcement has begun the crackdown on illegal aliens here in Las Vegas. I am glad these people are being deported or thrown in jail because of improper documentation.
Anyone who has read my blog in the past knows I don't think much of our president, but he does agree that these people who live and work in this country must speak our language. On the day without immagrants, I was deeply vexed by statements from the illegals that they should have certain rights that ONLY citizens of this country should have. My message to you is this, if you want the rights and freedoms of US citizens then take the time and become one. I do agree to some degree that the illegal immagrants make up a large portion of our workforce (especially in Vegas where most of the valley speaks Spanish) and without them our economy would be crippled. If you want to stay in our country please learn to speak our language and apply for citizenship.


Well, now that I have pissed off the masses (oh so what) I am entitled to my opinion. I will be glad to hear the responses from all of you there in Blogland. Well, that's all folks.

So Y'All Missed Me Eh? Well I'm Back Bitches

I am glad to see you all have missed me. Well I have missed you all too. I have been reading your blogs to see what is up with everybody. Now here is up with me.

Sadly, after much deliberation, I have decided to move back with Ma and Pa until my financial situation improves. It sucks but it is something I have to do.

Have been going to see the p-doc regularly and he confirmed my initial diagnosis of Bi-Polar. Finally I have a diagnosis now, I can begin treatment and in depth counseling. I am sure there are a lot of you out there who can relate to my relief. He also reduced my medication so maybe very soon I can write some kick ass poems and some hot stories on La Femme.


Before tax season my sister-in-law Lynette gave me a gift of a new laptop so I can really get serious about my writing. I am slowly working to finish my poems that I started last year. It seems when I am not medicated, I write better. Maybe I will try to write medicated and see what happens.

I got a new member to my household, a Siamese kitten named Duke. He is crazy but the cutest little thing I have ever seen. He is my Mom's cat Coco's brother so it should be interesting to see how these two interact when I move in with my folks in July. I will be posting pictures of Duke when they become available

I have been smoking more, drinking a little more than I should be. And I spend countless hours in front of the computer playing video games. My attitude is fuck it, we only live once. I love being unemployed. Sitting om my ass doing nothing all day long. I do plan to actively look for work twoards the end of the summer. I will get bored of this before to long.


Well, that is it for me. I hope everybody is doing well. Please leave a comment and let me know how everybody is doing. Well that's all folks.