No Longer A Virgin

Ha Ha! Made you look. Get your filthy minds out of the gutter. Every since my brother Jim and Lynette started doing Karaoke in the 90's they have always said that they were going to get me up on stage to sing. Through the years they have always said I was a chicken shit for not getting up to sing. So after many years they have popped my cherry, I am no longer a Karaoke virgin. I chose to do Landslide by Fleetwood Mac. I know I sucked at it, but what the fuck do you want from a virgin, for it to be awesome?



So this is me doing my song. Yes I have gained weight since I have been unemployed. That is going to change fast. I hope to get better as time goes on. I love to sing so I think I have found my outlet for a amateur.

"Food" For Thought

Well, I hope everybody in blogland had a safe and happy 4th.

As everybody is aware, I am currently unemployed. I have been asking myself why. I am thinking that maybe the reason is that I have FINALLY realized that I fucked up big time when it came to a career choice and I do NOT want to go back into corprate America for another round of panic attacks and heavy duty stress. I know that a career change is imminate, but I do not know how to begin. I do not know if it is even possible. Maybe I am just too old to make a change now. I just don't know!!! I am deeply perplexed.

When I was in college, I did very well in researching and writing papers. So something tells me that I should have pursued a career as a writer.

THE HEART TOOK OVER THE BRAIN!!!

Another thing I have been pondering is pursuing my poetry. I do not know how to get that ball rolling either. It may lead to something I really enjoy; music.

She sits on her bed with her head in the clouds as she says to herself what now!!!

I sit and ponder all of these questions as I lay in my bed getting fat on CC Cookie dough ice cream and watching sit-com reruns on TV until the wee hours of the morning.

I don't mean to depress anyone really, I guess I just have too much time on my hands. I think I am throwing a "mini" pity party which I hope will end soon.

Yet Another Poem

This is one of my favorite poems. I hope you all enjoy it.

To heal she now feels the pain and cries the tears,
She has not done so for many years.
She lies alone in her bed in the dead of night,
She wants someone to hold her and take away the fright.

She cries because she was made an adult before it
was time to be one,
She could never go out and have any fun.
She cries for her lost youth and innocence,
She feels that her whole life she has done penance.

She cries for not experiencing a first true love,
Pure and white just like a dove.
She cries for what she did to survive,
She has never felt truly alive.

She cries for the reality that she is alone,
She wants someone to find her and bring her home.
She cries for the lost hope she sometimes feels inside,
She wants to pull over the covers and hide.

She cries for making bad choices,
She has always listened to the voices.
She cries for the way her life has turned out,
Now all she wants to do is scream and shout.

She cries for the person she once was and the person
she has become,
She still hopes that some day those two will become one.

Yes...It's Another Poem

The Happy Little Pill

I take the happy little pill,
I feel like I take it against my will.
They make me feel I lost part of me,
I want to stop taking them don't you see.
It helps me manage my disease,
They think it will help me live life with some ease.


Before the pill I lived by mine not society's rules,
Even now I still won't sink on that ship of fools.
Come hell or high water I will not be led to slaughter.

A New Look

I felt it was time for a change. So here it is. I will be doing other customizing in the comong days. I hope everybody is doing well.

A Short Poem

Here is a little something I have been working on. I hope it will not depress anyone.

The Guardian

Dear sweet one we have finally laid you to rest,
Your sensitive soul is not put to the test.
You were sent to protect and guard,
To help us when life gets too hard.
You now sit quietly here on my shoulder,
To guard and guide as life grows colder.
We need to believe you did not die in vain
If you did nothing will be the same.

Meet My New Friend

As promised here are some pictures of my Siamese kitten named Duke. He is the cutest kitty I have ever seen. I love him to death. I love playing with him but I have new scratches on my arms, legs and face but it is worth it. I am very lonely and he makes life a little bit better. I took him to the vet on Thursday to get his first set of shots and he is doing well. I have to take him back in 3 weeks to get his second set.

I am very sad to read that Miz E has stopped blogging. It seems my blog friends are leaving me one by one. First Shannin then Blither then Miz E. All I want to know is why? I am thinking maybe they are going onto bigger and better things. I will miss all of you very much. Please stop by the blog and leave a comment. I would love to hear from you guys again. I have phone numbers so you can expect a call from me soon.

Well that's it for now. All my blog friends take care and I hope to hear from all of you soon