Christmas Reflections

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Well friends it is Christmas once again. It is a good time to reflect on this years failures and victories. It is a time to show others love, compassion and forgiveness. I think we should be doing things ALL year round. The reality is that we sometimes don't. This is a reality that I have a hard time accepting.

I have made some new friends this year-Rain and Candy you guys are the best! I also reconnected with some old ones. Sans, I hope you do well in therapy and begin to find some happiness in your life. I know it is hard, if you keep trying it will come.

Sid and Polar Bear-My Christmas wish for you is that you find peace and happiness. For us suffering from mental ailments it is a challenging proposition.

Jen, MM, James and Molly-Have a safe and Merry Christmas.

To my stalker-Please use your talents to further the greater good of man not to hurt other people.

To all my friends in blogland- Have a very Merry Christmas!

I Am Being Stalked!

I have an internet stalker on my hands. He is visiting my blogger sites at least 2 times a day for at least 30 minutes or more. He has also phised my MySpace as well.

He is taking my passwords dowloading pictures from ALL of my sites and displaying them all over the internet. He MUST be stopped! He has posted images from my blogger and MySpace friends as well. The most disturbing is that some of these pics are of minors. I don't know if he is a sexual preadator or what. Again he MUST! be stopped.

I would encourage all my friends on Blogger/MySpace to protect your profiles and pictures if you can. This person whoever they are is one sick mother fucker!

Now a word to my stalker:

I know who you are! I have reported you to the abuse hotline at Cox Communications. If you try to publish ANY of my poetry, I will sue you for copyright infringement once I am informed of your name and address. I do not know why you are doing this or why you chose me. You are a sick individual with too much time on your hands. Get some help..right quick. Ohh One more thing. Fuck off and die!!!

A DAY OF HOPE AND HEALING

On Saturday, I had the opportunity to attend this year's National Survivors of Suicide Day with Lynette. I was very honored that she asked me to attend. The conference was held at the Central Christian Church in Henderson, NV.

Lynette and I were there to honor (like everyone else) a loved one we lost to suicide. Below is a picture of Brittany. What a beautiful young lady she was!

We had a light breakfast of fruit and cake. After breakfast we had opening remarks about what we as survivors can do to take care of ourselves during the grieving process and that it is OK to feel how you feel whatever the emotion is. Lynette has said to me many times the only question she has is WHY? We then had a teleconference of other survivors in other states sharing their stories. All of these stories were moving but sad none the less.

After a break (Boy Lynette and I NEEDED a cigarette and a beer at this point!) we all got into groups to share our feelings and talk about whatever we wanted to talk about or not talk at all but listen to others share their stories. Lots of tears were shed! After about 30 minutes of that we went outside to release balloons to honor our loved ones.

When they called Brittany's name all the hairs on my arm stood up and I shed a few tears and secretly asked Bittany to forgive me( for not reaching out to her when I could have) because I have had a hard time forgiving myself.

Lynette and I had time to talk to people about the walk on December 2nd and hand out information. I think we will be seeing some of those people at the walk.

We also had the honor to meet Suicide Activist, ISP President and Author Matthew Dovel. He will be joining us for the walk.

All in all it was a wonderful day. The weather was warm and sunny. Good for us because Lynette and I got locked out of the building and we had to walk all the way around to the front entrance.

After the conference, Lynette and I went and had a couple of beers and played some slots. To relieve some tension. I won $100.00. I was like OMG! I never win anything!

I hope everyone is doing well. Please take care XXXX

In The News!

Just a little update. My aunt is feeling much better. I guess my dad going out there helped her alot.

Lynette, Rachel and I brought a major case of Bronchitis home for SLC! Lynette is still fighting it a little bit. It makes it hard for her to sing at her Karaoke show. What a Drag! But we found a remedy-Lots of Beer! HaHa!

I have found a temporary job until tax season starts-I hope! I have been asked to clean up the books of a local businessman. I went to his office and took a look-Whoa Man! They are a mess! I hope I can fix this!

Below is a recent picture of me with a friend at Jim & Lynette's Show.



I guess my friend is a little camera shy! That is odd knowing what I know about him. Wierd


I was watching the news last night at the town of Parumph has adopted English as it's official language. Of course some people got upset. Who doesn't when something controversial happens? Here is how I feel about this. It will FORCE people who do not speak English (yes you know who you are) wether you are in this country legally or not to learn english! The classes are free fro Christ's sake. So please take some time to take these classes-it will bring you one step closer to what you TRULY want-to enjoy the freedoms enjoyed by US citizens.

Salt Lake City

As promised, here are some photos from the SLC trip. Too bad I could not take any pictures of the band. All that I can say that the show ROCKED!!! The weather was kind of shitty but we managed. I have not seen snow since I left Boston in 2003!




Rachel & I dressed and ready to GO!!!

Rachel & Lynette-Dressed and Ready To Go!!!



How Pretty Rachel Looks!

Rachel & Lynette Just Chillin'




Lynette enjoying a cold one!-Oh how we love our beer!

Published Again!

On Thursday of last week I recieved a letter from the editors of Poetry.com to inform me that my poem "Addiction" is going to be published and that it is entered in the semi-finals in their monthly poetry contest. You can read the poem on my poetry blog, poetry.com or on My Space.

As some of you know my first poem "Her Angel" was published in 2005. To me this is another little step in where I want to go. I hope this IS a sign of better things to come.

IN THE NEWS

Tomorrow I embark to Salt Lake City to see Evanescence for the first time! I bought their new album and it ROCKS! I have been looking forward to this trip for a couple of months now. It will be my chance to relax and unwind. I have been under a lot of stress with finding a job and dealing with my Dad. These things have spun a web of depression. I hope this trip will help me get out of it. At the last minute the venue was changed from In The Venue to The Great Saltair. I read on the bands My Space that the venue change was due to fan demand for tickets. That tells me that they really care about their fans; that is TRULY cool! Lynette and I had a hell of a time finding directions to this venue but we did it! Below is a couple of pictures of the venue. I will post a blog about the trip complete with pictures when I get back on Friday









In other news...My aunt is in the hospital in Sioux Falls South Dakota. I guess she has been ill for some time. So, my dad left early this morning to SD to be with her. I hope his being there will help her recover faster! It is always nice to have family around when you are ill. There presence seems to soothe the soul! I wish her a speedy recovery!