New Poems

Well friends had a burst of creative energy last night. Boy it does feel good! I wrote 2 poems for the second book. In The Darkness and The Abyss. There are both documenting my progress in the healing process. I am going to post one of them here.




In The Darkness


I

A child alone in the darkness laid waiting for his footsteps to come,
Heard them come near wanted to run.

Alone in the darkness, built an imaginary world to escape the pain, wondering would anything be the same.

In the darkness crying alone, wanting comfort and arms that are safe, alone in the darkness his little waif.


II

Many nights laid in the darkness waiting for death to come, how many ways to become undone.

In the darkness laying for hours inside self wanting to die, for so many years, living and believing the lie.

In the darkness living a starving raped soul, hoping one day to become whole.


III

Years have passed, the journey has begun, it is time now to stop and not run.

Laying in the darkness the shadows of the past come calling, many nights dreams of falling.

Falling and falling with no end in sight, wake from sleep full of fright.

Feeling the shadows hands around the throat, wake from sleep wanting to choke.

The shadow breathes in the ear, wake from sleep again to not let him near.


IV


The journey continues,no dark shadows haunt the sleep, no more in the darkness weep.

In the darkness peace is near, the darkness no longer a source of fear.

In the darkness alone crying no longer, since the journey began the heart and healing soul become stronger.

Update

Well I told everybody about my sick cat. I did some research on-line and I found a site called Holistic Pet Info .com. I read some information about liver problems in cats and I discovered a natural remedy Milk Thistle.It is a anti-oxidant that blocks and rids the liver of harmful toxins. They sell a product on this site where the active ingredient is Milk Thistle. So I am going to try this and see if he does not get better. Since it is in the early stages I am hopeful that this treatment will be effective.Another encouraging sign is that he used the litter box yesterday and he ate a little bit. It isn't much but it does give one some hope. I at least have to try this natural remedy before I make a final decision to put him down.

A Hard Decision To Make

Well I got some devastating news on Sunday. I took my cat Duke to the vet and the initial diagnosis is that he has liver failure. When the doctor told me I just burst into tears!!!! Since I am financially strapped right now I have a very hard decision to make. Do I just let nature take its course or do I have him put down? I am in no position emotionally to make this decision right now. My roommate suggested I sleep on it. Even now as I am typing this tears are rolling down my face.

HTC Arts Festival!

The festival kicked off last night! How I wish I was there! I have included some photos of the Davis Fine Arts Center. This is on the campus of West Virginia State University in Charleston, WV.

Not being able to go this year has given me a goal to shoot for, I will do the best I can to make enough money to attend next year's festival even if it is only for a couple of days!

Everybody have a great weekend!

Another MeMe!

I got this one from my fellow blogger buddy Rain. These are a lot of fun. Every now and again I will do one. So here it is!


I am: tired of hearing about this fiasco election

I think: it is time for change

I know: I am a good person

I want: to become a successful writer

I have: lived too many years in darkness

I wish: for peace and serenity

I hate: busy bodies

I will: inspire and encourage others with my words

I miss: the sounds and smells of the ocean

I fear: being alone at the end of my life

I hear: Missing by Evanescence

I crave: love

I search: for a true kindred spirit

I wonder: if the economy will get better

I regret: making some really bad choices

I love: the sun on my face

I ache: for healing

I am not: perfect and I don't want to be!

I imagine: a life filled with love, happiness and JOY!

I believe: in myself-finally!

I dance: every now and again

I sing: not very well-I would like to get better at that

I cry: when something or someone really moves me

I don't always: do the right thing

I fight: negative thinking every day

I write: good poems and short stories

I win: at on-line computer games sometimes they are fun!

I am never: going back to the place I was

I never: belittle someone's emotions

I always: strive every day to make myself better

I confuse: reality with fantasy (sometimes)

I listen to: all kinds of music

I can usually be found: right now in my sanctuary writing away

I am scared: of snakes, big dogs

I need: to feel the warmth of a mans touch

I am happy: when someone does something to help someone else


So there you have it. I know some of my answers are a little deep but they are honest. All I can be is me!

Amazon.com

Checked this site today and the book is on it and available for purchase. It has been there since Sept 15. I was under the impression that it would take another 4 to 6 weeks. What a surprise that is! All you need to do is type in the name of the book Breaking The Silence.... A Survivor's Story and it will take you right to it. Here is what it looks like.



Breaking The Silence.... A Survivor's Story by Marie Coppla (Paperback - Sep 15, 2008)
Buy new: $15.50
2 Used & new from $15.50
Get it by Monday, Oct 6 if you order in the next 18 hours and choose one-day shipping.
Eligible for FREE Super Saver Shipping.



I am so excited!!! Now it makes me want to print out the flyers and start going to the local independant bookstores around town.


I hope everybody has a great weekend.

Casualty Of A Bad Economy!

Well friends, I am unemployed once again! I'm not going to trip on this latest unfortunate event! The company I was assigned to had to lay off at least 25% of their work force. Yikes! The temps were the first to go. Isin't that how it always is though? Some of the permanent employees were let go as well. Now that really bites!

My supervisor was let go and one of my writer friends! I saw the tears in her eyes and I just gave her a big hug and offered her words on encouragement, gave her my phone number and asked her to call me sometime.

All in all this was a good experience for me. I am disappointed however that this did not go where I hoped it would go. I connected with several good people there whom I hope will stay in touch.

I contacted the agency immediately after I was told. The staffing manager said that everybody is being affected by this trying economy as well. They are not getting in the assignments in. I NEED to stay positive and hope for the best.

What to do now! Maybe this is a sign that I should be focusing on getting my book into circulation. I am also going to refile my unemployment claim. Unfortunately it is not enough to meet ALL of my monthly expenses but it is something.

I hope everybody has a great rest of the week!