In light of recent events, I have made the decision to take this blog private. My loyal blogger pals recieved invitation e-mails today. If anyone else would like to be added, please send me a e-mail at mariecoppla@hotmail.com please include you e-mail address.
Thanks for your understanding!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Warning!
The purpose of this blog is to share my thoughts and things that have happened in my daily life. It is unfortunate however, that some people continue to hate and have negative karma.
So, my message is clear to all, if you do not like what is written here take the advice of Bob Seger and "Turn The Page". You may mean well, but I will not subject myself or my readers to verbally abusive comments. They will NOT be tolerated!
If this negativity continues, I will have no choice but to continue my blog by invitation only! It is very unfortunate that I have to even consider this action since I am a firm believer in free speech!
Consider yourself warned!
So, my message is clear to all, if you do not like what is written here take the advice of Bob Seger and "Turn The Page". You may mean well, but I will not subject myself or my readers to verbally abusive comments. They will NOT be tolerated!
If this negativity continues, I will have no choice but to continue my blog by invitation only! It is very unfortunate that I have to even consider this action since I am a firm believer in free speech!
Consider yourself warned!
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
A Moment of Clarity
Something happened to me today that I would like to share with everybody.
One of my roommates came into my room and started to accuse me of not doing something around the house. I nicely (at first) told him that I have been doing the activity in question. He was not pleased with the answer I gave him. So he starting antagonizing me about it. I asked him to leave and he refused. I tried to close the door and he blocked the door with his foot! At this point I became VERY angry to the point wanting to smack the crap out of him. We carried on for a few minutes yelling and screaming where he accused me of antagonizing him. Isin't that rich? After the incident I thought to myself why did I become so angry at something so small and insignificant? Something that had no meaning in the grand scheme of life. After I calmed down and was abel to think the answer came to me. It is two fold.
First I got angry at the fact that he showed no respect for me and my personal space when I asked him nicely to leave.
Second, he had me cornered in my personal space and I had nowhere to turn. Usually when he starts in on me, in the common areas of the house, I turn and walk away. This time however I had no way out. I felt trapped. Then it hit me later on that this incident reminded me of my childhood. Being hit from all sides with nowhere to turn. I was being abused and I also had to deal with the fact that I was a social outcast and I only had 1 friend, so my room became my sanctuary, the only place I could find comfort and solace.
I am also a little frustrated and angry that the people in this house and some of my so called friends don't know or don't seem to care about this journey I am on. Maybe their lack of interest or compassion stems from that they don't want to face their pasts and they are trying to deal with the present. They don't seem to realize that the things or circumstances in the present seem to stem from unresolved issues of the past. I understand that this is common and I try not to force this on the people around me. When I started the healing process back in 1998 I made a commitment to myself to see this journey through! I owe it to myself to do this! I owe it to myself to HEAL!!!!!!!
One of my roommates came into my room and started to accuse me of not doing something around the house. I nicely (at first) told him that I have been doing the activity in question. He was not pleased with the answer I gave him. So he starting antagonizing me about it. I asked him to leave and he refused. I tried to close the door and he blocked the door with his foot! At this point I became VERY angry to the point wanting to smack the crap out of him. We carried on for a few minutes yelling and screaming where he accused me of antagonizing him. Isin't that rich? After the incident I thought to myself why did I become so angry at something so small and insignificant? Something that had no meaning in the grand scheme of life. After I calmed down and was abel to think the answer came to me. It is two fold.
First I got angry at the fact that he showed no respect for me and my personal space when I asked him nicely to leave.
Second, he had me cornered in my personal space and I had nowhere to turn. Usually when he starts in on me, in the common areas of the house, I turn and walk away. This time however I had no way out. I felt trapped. Then it hit me later on that this incident reminded me of my childhood. Being hit from all sides with nowhere to turn. I was being abused and I also had to deal with the fact that I was a social outcast and I only had 1 friend, so my room became my sanctuary, the only place I could find comfort and solace.
I am also a little frustrated and angry that the people in this house and some of my so called friends don't know or don't seem to care about this journey I am on. Maybe their lack of interest or compassion stems from that they don't want to face their pasts and they are trying to deal with the present. They don't seem to realize that the things or circumstances in the present seem to stem from unresolved issues of the past. I understand that this is common and I try not to force this on the people around me. When I started the healing process back in 1998 I made a commitment to myself to see this journey through! I owe it to myself to do this! I owe it to myself to HEAL!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 05, 2009
New Poem
Beauty
Sees through the glorious light,
Every part of beauty etches the soul,
Needs beauty to help become whole.
The ache and longing continue,
Constant in the heart sees beauty everywhere,
Instead of an ugly stare.
Clandestine love of a young heart,
Needing and yearning beauty’s path to cross,
Without it, the heart suffers loss.
Needs beauty to comfort the tired soul,
Living in a world that doesn’t care,
Crying and alone in despair.
Like two ships sailing different ways,
The path and beauty have been going,
Not one or the other knowing.
The fates say they have other things in store,
It is time to let go,
Like a stubborn child tells them NO!
So hard to let go of beauty,
It is in the heart from first to last,
It does not remind of the dark and wicked past.
Knowing there is much light ahead,
Still holds to beauty tightly,
Day by day tries to let go ever so lightly.
Sees through the glorious light,
Every part of beauty etches the soul,
Needs beauty to help become whole.
The ache and longing continue,
Constant in the heart sees beauty everywhere,
Instead of an ugly stare.
Clandestine love of a young heart,
Needing and yearning beauty’s path to cross,
Without it, the heart suffers loss.
Needs beauty to comfort the tired soul,
Living in a world that doesn’t care,
Crying and alone in despair.
Like two ships sailing different ways,
The path and beauty have been going,
Not one or the other knowing.
The fates say they have other things in store,
It is time to let go,
Like a stubborn child tells them NO!
So hard to let go of beauty,
It is in the heart from first to last,
It does not remind of the dark and wicked past.
Knowing there is much light ahead,
Still holds to beauty tightly,
Day by day tries to let go ever so lightly.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Daily Horoscope
Every now and again my horoscope seems to reflect what is currently going on in my life. I read mine today and I was like WOW!
Friday, Jun 26th, 2009 -- Accomplishing your long-term goals might seem like an impossible task now as you face the simple reality of where you are in your life. But there's no time for self-pity; you have important work to do today. You have a small window of opportunity, so don't waste any time. Acknowledge what isn't working and make whatever changes are necessary to get back on track.
Friday, Jun 26th, 2009 -- Accomplishing your long-term goals might seem like an impossible task now as you face the simple reality of where you are in your life. But there's no time for self-pity; you have important work to do today. You have a small window of opportunity, so don't waste any time. Acknowledge what isn't working and make whatever changes are necessary to get back on track.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
HTC Survivor Art Event
CALLING PRESENTERS, PERFORMERS AND ARTISTS
Submit your art work, present your workshop or performance at the 4th Annual Healing through Creativity Art Event for Survivors of TraumaTrauma Survivors and Supporters of Survivors of Trauma are invited to share art, music, writing, poetry and other creative forms at the Healing Through Creativity Festival. Connect with other trauma survivors at the event. Volunteer today.
Calling for Presenters, Performers and Artists.
CONTACT US NOW.
When: Oct 17-24 2009Where : Heart of Virginia Foundation Center for Integrated Arts, Grandin Gardens, 1731 Grandin Rd, Roanoke, Virginia The experience helps trauma survivors and promotes community understanding.For more information visit our website and forum at www.healingthroughcreativity.org for contact details.
CHECK IT OUT TODAY
Sunday, June 07, 2009
The Writing Is Back!!
Someone In The Crowd
Saw him sitting there in the crowd
For a moment remembered the things he has done; like a thief stole youth’s dreams, innocence and possibility with one touch, the anger, rage and pain, how through the journey the spirit cleans up the mess he made
The moment over, turn and walk away, remember what has been done to live and thrive
In a new life he has no place, no longer a face or a name, now just someone in the crowd
Saw him sitting there in the crowd
For a moment remembered the things he has done; like a thief stole youth’s dreams, innocence and possibility with one touch, the anger, rage and pain, how through the journey the spirit cleans up the mess he made
The moment over, turn and walk away, remember what has been done to live and thrive
In a new life he has no place, no longer a face or a name, now just someone in the crowd
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