Thursday, June 26, 2008

It's A Done Deal!!!

Well friends the final draft of the book is revised, edited and approved by me! The book has an ISBN number and will be available to online book stores in about 2 months. You can also do a Google search as well. I have not changed the title or the cover! You can go to the website to see a preview of the changes.

I labored tirelessly over the last four days to get this ready. Adding content, changing page formats, fonts ect. I am truly proud of this work and it gives me a great sense of accomplishment!

The next step is marketing and promotion!

I am also working on a second collection of poems. I hope to have this book finished sometime in 2009.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Getting A Face Lift

Ha Ha made you look! The face lift is not literal but figurative. I am hardly a candidate for a face lift yet!

A friend of mine wants to make an investment to get my book into circulation, so I am making some changes to the book to make it look more professional and to obtain an ISBN number.

For those of you who have already have a copy, it is 8.5x11, I am changing it to 6.9 (the size of a small paperback). This will hopefully increase the number of pages. I am also adding some things that I omitted when I first published the book. I have included a title and copy write page, table of contents and a bibliography. I also have to include blank pages because the number of pages have to be divisible by 50. I am keeping the title and the book cover the same. So with these changes, the book will be eligible for me to obtain an ISBN number. Now onto other things.

The weight loss is in the home stretch. I have about 15 more pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight. My legs and butt are defined due to all of the exercise I have been doing. When I was younger, I was ALWAYS teased by others that I had "chicken legs" and my mother in having no ass. No wonder I developed a poor body image. What the fuck!!!!!! The only thing I REALLY have to concentrate on is my hips and stomach. I did a little research and I found out that I have a pear shaped body (which is common amongst Italian women). All excess weight is distributed to the hips and stomach. What a drag!!! I am now wearing clothes that are 4 sizes too big. This reminds me how far I have come. Since July of last year I went from a size 18/20 to a better size 10/12. What an accomplishment that is!!!!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

The Result of Bad Choices Part 1

It is 3am and I am still awake. As I was lying in my bed desperately trying to sleep, the same question kept popping up: why am I still in the same place? Then it occurred to me : maybe it is because I have made some bad choices.

I guess it started many years ago when I made my career choice. I was so desperate for my father's attention and approval that I would do anything to please him. When I was growing up, my father paid a lot of attention to one of my cousins. This attention made me furious because I felt (and still do) that his attention should have been focused more on me and my brother. This cousin chose to pursue a business degree. So I figured when I decided to back to college a business degree was the way to go.

I had problems from the start. I had to take some time off due to a car accident. After the recovery, I had to find a job to catch up on bills and start saving to go back. I had trouble getting back into the swing of college life and my grades showed it. I took classes like calculus and statistics. Judging from the grades I received and statements made by my instructors it seemed to me that I had made the wrong choice. I was stubborn and decided to press on. Many years and several dead end jobs later, I finally realized that they were right. It did not help matters much that I had low concentration and battling depression due to issues that were coming to the surface. I will deal with those in another post on my other blog.

I barely got by and graduated. I mentioned I have had several dead end jobs since graduating college. Now I understand why they were dead end: I did not (and still don't) love what I was doing. Now let's move on to present circumstances.

I find myself broke and have no full time job. Between my part time position at H&R Block and unemployment it is not enough to meet ALL of my monthly expenses. If some of you remember I had a job at a local casino but was terminated due to the fact the the fat cats did not want to pay the finder's fee to the agency. After that I chose NOT to work in the gaming industry ever again and not to get ahead in business. It is so cuthroat and dishonest and I just don't want to put up with all of that bullshit!

This post is not to solicit sympathy. I alone realize I got myself into this and take responsibility for the bad choices I have made. I feel like I am stuck in a profession that does not work for me anymore (not that it ever did). I feel like I am trapped with no way out.