Wednesday, October 29, 2008
My recent temp assignment ended yesterday. I talked with the agency and they are doing their best to find me another assignment for next week. I guess since I have been making some money for them the will work to find me assignments. I just have to have a little faith that things will work out for the best.
I recently joined Facebook to promote the book, and I found a lot of people there that I went to high school with. Isin't this a small world or what? Anyway, I got a call from one of my fellow classmates last night and we talked for about 30 minutes or so. It feels so good to reconnect with old friends again. One of the things I still struggle with in the healing process is social situations. This has gotten better over time though. I am more confident and happy these days and it makes me want to reach out to people again. What a good feeling that is.
I have noticed lately that since I am not working steady, that I have been eating out of boredom, I have to be very careful here not to regress back into old behaviors. I have worked so hard to get this weight off and I will have to work even harder to keep it off. So what to do? Well I can work on my writing and finish up 3 short stories I have been working on and start walking again. I found that the local community center has a gym there and for a membership fee of $80 (for the year) I can have unlimited use of the facility. Since I am still financially strapped it will have to wait a bit.
So there you have it. A glimpse of what is going on in my exciting life. LOL!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. I enjoy Del Taco
Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. I love Joe’s Crab Shack
Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. The typical 20% or more if the service is really good
Q. What food could you eats every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A: I can't think of anything I could eat every day for two weeks without getting sick
Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. Chicken, Mushrooms and Onions
Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A: Butter or Cream Cheese
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A: The Healing Through Creativity Festival Promo
Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A: Five. One in bedroom and one in the garage
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Left-handed (we are in our right minds)
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. 3 Pounds of excess breast tissue
Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. This year! Ouch!
Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. My cat’s litter box filled with heavy litter
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. Have not thought about it much
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. Don’t recall
Q. Have you ever saved someone’s life?
A. Yes. Mine!
Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. What’s up? I am not cheap and slutty! WTF!
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. No way man!
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. No-writing and blogging is my link to the outside world right now. I am hoping to change that.
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. If I looked good naked maybe. Working on that too!
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. Hell No!!!
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. No-there are worse things than death!
Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: I am currently wearing clothes without pockets
Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: Never seen the movie
Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: Stand-Shit I am not ready for AARP yet!
Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: Already doing that!
Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: Have not been that fortunate to have a run in with the establishment
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
Q: Who is number 1 on your top 8?
A: No one, I don’t even have a top 8.*
Q: Last friend you talked to?
Q: Last person who called you?
A: A bill collector
Q: Person you hugged?
A: My roommate Trish
A: Don’t have one
Q: Missing someone?
A: Depressed-have to put my cat Duke down
Q: Listening to?
A: Don’t Give Up-Peter Gabriel/Kate Bush
A: Don’t watch much anymore-Last thing I really watched was the Olympics (swimming and gymnastics)
Q: Worrying about?
A: The economy
Q: First place you went this morning?
Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: Fall in love for the first time.
Q: What’s the last movie you saw?
A: Can’t remember
Q: Do you smile often?
A: Yes, but not in the last couple of days, my cat is dying!
Q: Are you a friendly person?
Saturday, October 18, 2008
In The Darkness
A child alone in the darkness laid waiting for his footsteps to come,
Heard them come near wanted to run.
Alone in the darkness, built an imaginary world to escape the pain, wondering would anything be the same.
In the darkness crying alone, wanting comfort and arms that are safe, alone in the darkness his little waif.
Many nights laid in the darkness waiting for death to come, how many ways to become undone.
In the darkness laying for hours inside self wanting to die, for so many years, living and believing the lie.
In the darkness living a starving raped soul, hoping one day to become whole.
Years have passed, the journey has begun, it is time now to stop and not run.
Laying in the darkness the shadows of the past come calling, many nights dreams of falling.
Falling and falling with no end in sight, wake from sleep full of fright.
Feeling the shadows hands around the throat, wake from sleep wanting to choke.
The shadow breathes in the ear, wake from sleep again to not let him near.
The journey continues,no dark shadows haunt the sleep, no more in the darkness weep.
In the darkness peace is near, the darkness no longer a source of fear.
In the darkness alone crying no longer, since the journey began the heart and healing soul become stronger.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Not being able to go this year has given me a goal to shoot for, I will do the best I can to make enough money to attend next year's festival even if it is only for a couple of days!
Everybody have a great weekend!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
I am: tired of hearing about this fiasco election
I think: it is time for change
I know: I am a good person
I want: to become a successful writer
I have: lived too many years in darkness
I wish: for peace and serenity
I hate: busy bodies
I will: inspire and encourage others with my words
I miss: the sounds and smells of the ocean
I fear: being alone at the end of my life
I hear: Missing by Evanescence
I crave: love
I search: for a true kindred spirit
I wonder: if the economy will get better
I regret: making some really bad choices
I love: the sun on my face
I ache: for healing
I am not: perfect and I don't want to be!
I imagine: a life filled with love, happiness and JOY!
I believe: in myself-finally!
I dance: every now and again
I sing: not very well-I would like to get better at that
I cry: when something or someone really moves me
I don't always: do the right thing
I fight: negative thinking every day
I write: good poems and short stories
I win: at on-line computer games sometimes they are fun!
I am never: going back to the place I was
I never: belittle someone's emotions
I always: strive every day to make myself better
I confuse: reality with fantasy (sometimes)
I listen to: all kinds of music
I can usually be found: right now in my sanctuary writing away
I am scared: of snakes, big dogs
I need: to feel the warmth of a mans touch
I am happy: when someone does something to help someone else
So there you have it. I know some of my answers are a little deep but they are honest. All I can be is me!
Friday, October 03, 2008
Breaking The Silence.... A Survivor's Story by Marie Coppla (Paperback - Sep 15, 2008)
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I am so excited!!! Now it makes me want to print out the flyers and start going to the local independant bookstores around town.
I hope everybody has a great weekend.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
My supervisor was let go and one of my writer friends! I saw the tears in her eyes and I just gave her a big hug and offered her words on encouragement, gave her my phone number and asked her to call me sometime.
All in all this was a good experience for me. I am disappointed however that this did not go where I hoped it would go. I connected with several good people there whom I hope will stay in touch.
I contacted the agency immediately after I was told. The staffing manager said that everybody is being affected by this trying economy as well. They are not getting in the assignments in. I NEED to stay positive and hope for the best.
What to do now! Maybe this is a sign that I should be focusing on getting my book into circulation. I am also going to refile my unemployment claim. Unfortunately it is not enough to meet ALL of my monthly expenses but it is something.
I hope everybody has a great rest of the week!