Friday, November 30, 2007

Weight Loss Journal Part 7

Well it has been a really uneventful week! I am stressed out a little about how I am going to make it through the month of December being broke! Teaching is not really paying me all that much!
I started keeping a food journal this week. I would like to share this with you!

1 cup of brown rice, green beans, 1 slice of turkey and brussel sprouts with 2 glasses of water.
50 minutes of excercise
1 cup of brown rice and 1 glass of water

1 glass of water
Chicken salad on whole wheat bread with 1tbsp of mayo with 1 glass of water
30 minutes of excercise

3 glasses of water
2 small slices of cheese pizza
1 plain doughnut

4 glasses of water
1 small bowl of pasta

2 scrambelled eggs
1 piece if whole wheat toast with 1 tsp of butter
2 glasses of water
Tuna melt on whole wheat bread 1 glass of water
40 Minutes of excercise
1 cup of pasta
1 cup of green beans
1 liter of spring water

Not bad! I know I could be doing more! It is getting a little chilly here at night so I am not walking as much as I should and I miss that! So if you diet/excercise gurus out there can offer me any tips I would appreciate them!
I hope next week will be a little bit better

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Weight loss Journal Part 6

I just have one thing to say-I am so glad Thanksgiving is over! On turkey day I ate whatever I wanted ,filled myself with lots of alcohol and I even got propositioned! How cool is that?

On Saturday my friend left for California and she took my out to brunch. I did make some very healthy food choices! I started off with lots of veggies and fish! The second time however, I got some eggs and hash browns Yum Yum! I figured to myself it is a holiday weekend and I need to indulge myself just a little bit! On Saturday night I had holiday leftovers but I limited myself to very small portions!

I went out Saturday evening and while I tried on a couple of outfits they did not work! I kept looking at myself in the mirror and did not like what I saw! So here I am on Sunday afternoon getting myself back on track! I am going to do an intense workout today so all the stuff I ate (healthy or not) won't catch up with me! I guess I am always going to be haunted by this body image thing! CRAP!!!!!!

I did stick to the no sweets resolution because I did drink a lot of alcohol on turkey day! So the weekend was not a total bust! I hope everybody had a wonderful turkey day!

I am not really looking forward to the next holiday coming up! People can get really weird during the holiday season. With the support of my "inner circle" I think I will be okay!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Weight Loss Journal Part 5

There is a lot to tell! For the last couple of months I have been helping a friend get out of an abusive relationship. I was amazed how I managed to help my friend and also pursue my weight loss goals. I am happy to report that my friend now has left that situation and is in a safe place. She is now making plans to move to California after Thanksgiving to start her new life and I couldn't be happier for her!

However, now I am starting to see some of the fallout of this and for a few days it has got me a little depressed. I have not excercised in a few days and I started to fall back into some old patterns. I then stopped and thought to myself hey I had nothing to do with this directly, I was just helping a friend in need! So needless to say now I am back on track!

As we know the holiday season is approaching and I am concerned because I love to eat during this time of the year. I am concerned that I will binge eat and destroy the progress I have made. I know however, that if I eat in moderation and exercise regularly, I should be okay for the holiday season! I will strive to make better food choices and lay off sweets. I did have half of a chocolate chip cookie and it was yummy! I guess the key to this is exercising some control and eat to live and not live to eat which was such a pattern in my life!

I basically ate to fill the voids in my life. I NEVER want to go back to that place again! I also compulsively overate to survive and cope with certain situations in my life. You will ALL figure it out when the book is published.

The book is done! I uploaded my files and designed the cover. All I need now is to take some head shots for the back cover and it is good to go!

I am going to need a lot of support and advice on how to stick to my goals during the holiday season. So if any of you diet and fitness gurus out there have any suggestions please feel free to leave a comment or a message!

I wish all my friends a Happy Thanksgiving

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Weight Loss Journal Part 4

I usually wait until Friday to post but I feel compelled to share right now! Today was a so so day. I started off with 1 egg and a piece of whole grain toast with a full glass of water. For dinner I had a little bit of pasta with a salad of grapes, oranges, red onions and iceberg lettuce and a full glass of water. Not bad eh?

I was getting ready to teach this evening and I was bitterly disappointed with my choice of outfits. It made me look and feel frumpy. My pants and shirt were floating on me. I really felt bad and a little depressed about the whole thing but I could not go teach my class with this kind of mindset. So I had to TRY and get over it!

When I came home, I ate and checked my messages. I had to make myself feel better. I really did not feel like a workout. This was one of thoes days where I just wanted to throw in the towel and say the hell with it! I knew in the back of my mind though that if didn't walk or workout I kne I would regret it. So I just did my workout.

The one thing I am beginning to find out about exercise-it makes me feel better all around. It keeps me from going into a depressive funk which I have been known to do every now and again. I remain positive and hopeful that my future is just around the corner.
I have given so much of my life away to depression, anxiety and fear. I am trying to build a life from nothing. It seems however that it is slowly coming together.

Friday, November 02, 2007

Weight Loss Journal Part 3

It was a very uneventful week. After the somewhat negative feedback I recieved last week I can be proud of the fact that I did not give into old patterns. This tells me that a change has been made.

I have noticed lately that I have some definition in my legs and thighs. I guess all of the walking I have done is FINALLY starting to pay off!!! I am long away from reaching all of my goals. I guess I have to take it one day at a time. This will be hard for me because as I have said before I am VERY impatient I want this weight gone like right now!!!!

I am also changing some of the ways I eat. I take smaller portions and it seems to fill me up just fine. I will give you an example. Sunday my roommate cooked a wonderful brunch. I had a spoonful of eggs, 1 slice of bacon and 1 slice of whole wheat toast. I also had several chunks of cantalope and honeydew melon. Yum Yum! After about an hour after that I went out and walked for about 90 minutes. I feel so much better after I excercise. It really keeps me motivated. This coming from ME who HATES to excercise. The tradeoff is I am seeing some results.

Other things have changed. Instead of drinking SEVERAL cans of soda a day I am drinking more water and juice. I have also reduced my salt intake. By force of habit I always covered my food with additional salt. Now I hardly reach for the salt shaker anymore. At night after I come home from teaching I usually have a sandwhich either turkey or chicken salad on whole grain bread.

All of these things I am doing have great health benefits. I am reducing the risk of heart disease and diabetes both of which run in my family.

So this is going to be a SLOW process but in the end if I am thin and healthy it will ALL be worth it.