Those of you who have read and commented on my last two posts understand what I have been dealing with. Yesterday I had a epiphany about this situation.
It seems I am always quick to blame myself for how others behave. That I somehow asked for this kind of behavior. I went so far as to think I could become abusive myself. Then it hit me-this person is a drug addict! So now I am beginning to think that hey I am not crazy I am just dealing with an addict again!
I am so tired of dealing with addicts! My abuser and his former girlfriend were alcoholics and used meth. My abuser still drinks quite a bit. I have really got to try and surround myself with a healthier group of people!
I am working so hard to make lasting changes. It seems for every step I take, I take two back!
I am to a point now that I am no longer a fledgling writer but I am not an expert either. How well I write depends on how I feel at any given moment. So please don't hold it against me. I am traveling a long road to understand more about myself and to just deal with life as it comes. "Sometimes It's A Bitch...Sometimes It's A Breeze".
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1 comment:
Good that you realise you are NOT to blame!
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